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Friday, February 04, 2011
When i freak you understand.. @ 12:32 AM
For decades, i've been in search for an answer..
An answer to the hidden pain where occurrence is barely predictable..
Lively as i may seem now, but the very next second, it could turn me into a statue..
Paralysed..
Paralysed like a statue..
there's only so much air i can take..
and so little i can move..
"when is this going to end?"
"am i going to die?"
those were the only questions on my mind..
Calm as i may appear..
Deep within fear and anxiety creeps upon me..
Helpless..yes..
It's the sense of helplessness that creeps..
i feel like a freak..
It was not until recently that i started to feel better..
coz there's someone out there who's identical as me..
i was relieved..
Very relieved to meet that someone..
But a part of me says "selfish"..
it's not something joyous to celebrate when you know,
there's another soul undergoing the same pain as you do..
Perhaps, i've been yearning for such comfort just to know am not alone..
It's amazing that he knows when it strikes me and the exact anxiety we shared..
I am comforted..truly..
And through his kind support and advice..
i finally have the courage to seek professional help..
For all these, i thank God for the divine arrangement..
am grateful that you've shed light to ease my worries and gave me courage..
Whatever the outcome is,
I sincerely hope that we'll heal and be freed from this misery..
Love,
Cariño
Thursday, May 28, 2009
Impressions of the West Lake @ 11:51 PM
Hi, old pal..
its been years since I last blogged..yes..years..
Times have been busy, draining me out..
Despite having heart-felt messages to my friends,
am not left with much energy by the time am home after work and school..
Today,am back again..
because of an old friend..
A special friend that the modern technology of Internet has brought us together..
He is unique..He is Danny..(n_n)
No words describe how surprised i was upon receiving the gift..
As if,he could read my mind..
I remembered clearly that I told no one about this..
All i did was i searched the local stores, in hope that i could purchase it..
As I recalled months before Beijing Olympics, i saw this MTV
"http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n_bJZJawiag"
I love the performance..but most of all,i longed for its soundtrack..
Tonight,it arrived..quietly at my doorstep..
"Impressions of the West Lake" - Kitaro,
It was from him..Danny,my soulmate..
Thank you so much,Danny..I truly appreciated it..
Despite my often "disappearance"..you're always still there for me..
Am very grateful for your understanding..
Your sweet thoughts of our friendship has deeply warmed my heart..
Thank you so much for being a wonderful friend..(n_n)
Love,
Cariño
Saturday, July 14, 2007
Legend of Heavenly King.. @ 11:00 PM

My 12yrs await upon this concert was definitely worthwhile..
Jacky Cheung,1 of the finest male vocalists in Hong Kong,
Often dubbed as God of Songs (歌神)
Well known for his rich baritone voice,wide range
and exceptional interpretative powers.
Was my honour to witness his legendary performance
Live at the Indoor Stadium..
Despite being down with cough,
Jacky was still able to divulge his powerful vocals,
Challenging different genres of music..
from Canto to Mandarin-pop, R&B, Rapping and Musical singing..
Flaunting his passion & professionalism upon 10,000 audience..
Mesmerizing audience with his many well-loved hit songs such as
《吻别》,《每天爱你多一些》,《情网》,《情书》-Love Letter,
《只愿一生爱一人》,《一路上有你》,《爱是永恒》-Eternal Love.
Jacky also dedicated a special memorial song called "To My Friends"
for his lost old friends including Anita Mui & Leslie Cheung..
He sent true sincere messages across as he spoke about himself..
"Am 46yrs old, an age of 46 is no longer young..
I spent 10 over yrs in deep thoughts on,what Life's all about?
How should I live it?
Thou now I cant explain it yet...
But in Life, there are bound to be ups & downs..
Only then,Life's interesting..
For those with unhappy encounters..
When you're sad, gotta be strong, hold on..
And good things will come along your way naturally...Trust me.."
Performing 40 complete songs within 4hrs,
Jacky has successfully demonstrated his ultimate passion and determination towards music..
He's a born performer..
With remarkable confidence, he belongs to the stage..
"The Year of Jacky Cheung World Tour 2007" is a phenomenal..
Lastly, here comes a little vocal tip from our God of Songs;
"Sing with your heart...
As long as you sing with your heart..
all songs shall be pleasant.."
ps: checkout-> http://www.jackycheungworldtour.com/
Love,
Cariño
Getting wiLD,King..
SentimentaL love songs,melt us all..
Singing like a RocK staR..
Tuesday, May 22, 2007
Music to their hearts.. @ 11:49 PM
If i were to relate myself with a musical instrument..
I'll portray myself as an ocarina..
Moulded by the hands of others, from a lump of clay..
I become who I am today..
Dull and plain as I may seem to be..
where simplicity and carefreeness..
are viewed as greatest flaws among eyes of others
My philosophy is simple..
its innate in me that I live for others..
Whom I seek to establish fulfilling relations, gathering peace..
Self-contentment through unconditional love..
In hope that my affection will comfort and ease pain upon others..
Bringing music to their hearts..
love,
Carino
Saturday, April 07, 2007
Heaven and Earth.. @ 9:01 PM
After so many years,
eversince she was gone..
it was the first time i dreamt of her last night..
Everything was so real..
she was there in the living room in her favorite chair..
just like those good old times,when i was small..
but this time,she seemed tired..
Her smile didnt change after all these years..
still so gentle and warm as she looked at me..
she said.."he's kind..cherish him.."
then she left..
Woke up in tears..
i missed her so much..
and thought why it ended so fast..
it was as if she was trying to tell me something..
i know she had always doted us..
We maybe far apart in distance,
but never in our hearts..
love,
Carino
Tuesday, November 14, 2006
Unforgettable birthday.. @ 11:55 PM
Yeah, time flies.. Am another year older.. This year, things are abit different.. No big gatherings or celebrations..However, I was very honoured.. to have a bunch of wonderful colleagues who planned a birthday surprise for me.. Knowing that i love music more than my life..They reserved a karaoke room during lunch..Where we sang to our hearts content..Knowing these pals, is one of the best things that have ever happen in my life..Our friendship is built through laughters, encouragements, crappy jokes..and even angry tears..Working with them..I feel as if im 19..In fact i wasnt that hyper when i was 19..("p)Many times, I wish i could have met them earlier in my life..It is this friendship that ease my pain of sad memories.. Its also the bond we share that makes me believe in friendship again..And most importantly..that totally break me away from exhaustion..Bringing me back to my old carefree self again..Long before i learnt what pain was..Thank you,folks..for giving me an unforgettable birthday..ps: This yr's birthday gift is full of Wang Lee Hom..A song "Forever Love" sends my thoughts to 3 guys..You may not notice, but still..Thank you,boys..for all the wonderful memories..
love,
Carino
@ 11:50 PM

a beautiful birthday surprise..
@ 11:48 PM

My precious friendship..
@ 11:42 PM

when we kissS..
@ 11:26 PM

my hubbing kakiz..
@ 11:21 PM

Bubbly Jess & me..
@ 11:18 PM

Sweet gal, You-nice & me..
@ 11:16 PM

Our Fit Zai = Ah Ti & me..
@ 11:14 PM

Hyper salty sis. . . .heee & me!!
@ 11:13 PM

my jiemeis of starhub...=)
@ 11:08 PM

Cutie Melody & me. . . .
@ 11:07 PM

Gifts baby!! cant help smiling!!
@ 11:04 PM

.: my buddy slave - ah Jess & me :.
@ 11:02 PM

wooO..hearty birthday meal @ NYDC
@ 10:41 PM

scribbles of birthday messages..
@ 10:15 PM

Gifts!!!
Saturday, September 16, 2006
Beautiful Innocence @ 10:30 PM
Today's a cloudy day..The weather was exactly how i felt deep in my heart..Tough decisions were to be made..I must admit that i was never good at departures..However, due to my priorities,financials,I was left with no choice..but to sacrifice my precious vocal course..Before i part good-bye to my teacher, i wanted to give him a little something..To thank him how wonderful it has been,To bring music into my life..And so i decided to get him his favourite coffee vouchers..As i sat there awaiting for those vouchers to be delivered..I saw him playing..Where his parents were enjoying their hot brews..He was just an arm distance away from me..But our minds were a world apart..A typical 2 year old boy in baby blue tee..Never appeared so adorable to me..This little chap was really active and sociable..Climbing up and down the benches every now and then..Smiling at me with different hand signs every few seconds..It was amazing..As i watched him play..Our minds seemed to connect..Though he couldnt speak yet..but he could sense that i was upset..Looking at me doubtfully, trying to make sense..then smile again..Time seemed to fly as i watched him..Unnoticeably, i began to smile too..Never knew that watching a kid play can feel so wonderful..For a second, i wish i could keep him..As i moved on for my vouchers, he uttered "buh buh" and wave good-bye to me..That simple action really touched me..There was something just so beautiful about him...That made me felt so simple and contented..It was his joy and carefreeness..His beautiful innocence i wish i could own..
love,Carino
@ 9:12 PM

Happiness of Innocence..